Wednesday, October 31, 2012

"Beware of the man that does not talk and the dog that does not bark"


Finn is like an idiom. More specifically, the idiom: 'one step forward, two steps back'. Half-pint tends to be an over-achiever by circumstance, not nature or will. So when last Saturday (October, 27th) rolled around, I was more than surprised when he took a jump forward...and then back-tracked a gigantic leap (you'll notice I rarely ever updates on the days things tend to actually happen. My apologies. My slow mind needs time to process occurrences). 

Keith, my sneaky brother (older than me by a year), got me a job four years ago at the same place he works. We have managed car-pulling every weekend when our schedule coincides (car-pulling as in: he drives me to work. I don't drive) because it's an easier commute for him. Our parent's house is closer to our work so he usually spends the weekend with the family before heading to his apartment for another week. And while I love my brother (though he sometimes greatly annoys me as I'm sure I do on his end of the spectrum) Finn...doesn't really care for him on...well...any end of any spectrum. 

I guess it's kind of like a knee-jerk reaction for an accusation when you get an abused animal that you're first picture of the person responsible will probably match the stature of a guy like my dad: Tall, broad and burly. Emily drew the same conclusion due to the way Finn acted around her own father. Yet as the weeks spent with Finn continue to mount, a different picture is being painted in my mind. I'll never know for sure what happened to Finn, it's for the best that I don't, but Finn is warming up so much easier to my tall, broad, and burly dad rather than my tall, thin, and lanky brother. 

Every weekend Keith comes to visit, Finn is thrown in to a dither. He turns in to a scared little boy who has no qualms about wetting himself in favor of safety. Often, he refuses to exit the crate when my brother is over. I end up feeling bad not only for Finn, but for my brother. He's trying his best to be understanding and to get Finn on his good side, but he's only around for the weekends and the hours spent at home for that time is minimal. We've discussed methods to warm Finn up towards Keith, but there's always a hole in the theory or they are just not adequate enough to make a repeat impression. For now, we've just decided to let Finn take to him on his own, in his own way and maybe as he sees him more, he'll loosen up.

Since there's so much seemingly blocking Finn from harmony with Keith, we've left it alone for the most part. We weren't expecting anything coming out of those two, still really aren't. That why I was shocked at what Finn did when Saturday came. As logic and schedules dictate, Keith came home pretty late that night. Finn had been by my side for a couple of hours here and there. More often than not, he was pouting in my room before voicing his distress of my absence which I've quickly learned to ignore. On his usual pacing route from the safe corner in the living room to my room, Finn heard Keith's car pull in to the driveway, immediately stopping him in his tracks. After a few minutes of silence and hesitant waiting, he dipped his head, as per the usual, and headed toward my room in retreat. Finn then paused in his escape, something telling him to turn back around and stand by me. He took his place by my side, slightly shaking on his stumpy little legs, when he saw my brother's silhouette appear in the semi-transparent curtain at the door. 

And he barked. 

Low and behold, the one who I thought would choose to "forever hold his peace" decided to speak.

Emily once told me, she heard his bark while playing with his ol pal Wrigely (I think that's his name. I'll check later). She said it was a cute, funny bark. But this one was none of the sort. In fact, he barked again and it had me worried enough to reach out and calm him down with a "it's okay." He took that as his cue to retreat in to the safe-corner. 

Victorious in his battle with the lock and door handle, Keith stepped inside looking as surprised as I felt.

Sure, it wasn't playful or happy, but it was a bark. Which to me, is still a step forward for the lil guy. In fact, over much duration and debate, I've come to the conclusion he had decided to "protect" me and that's why he barked. And, that is a big step when you get past the fact that the bark was a bit unwarranted. Since then, he hasn't uttered a sound aside from the all-too-often whining when he wants something and knows he won't get it. 

Today (right this moment) we've started warming him up to my father with treats. He has already stared my father down for two minutes, knowing that it was he who had provided him with a bounty of treats, not tricks. Seeing as today is Halloween, his suspicion is understandable. Unlike me, he doesn't find a reason to whore out what is left of his virtue for what might be as little as a green Gobstopper (I'll leave the chocolate whoring to my brother ;D).

In other news, my hair which is unsure of whether it's an auburn or just a dark brown with slightly red tinting, is finally changing! Yeah, less exciting I know. After years of having it different hues of auburn, I'm attempting to change it to a lighter brown. My co-workers have been waiting for about three months for this. I've talked about it long enough, but haven't found the right methods to achieve this color until now. Well...semi-right color. It's going to be a bit more brassy-hued than it should because I won't be able to successfully rid myself of the red, but...enh...close enough. So, in tribute, here's one more glamor shot with my long time color (who knows, I may only lose it for a day if I don't like the color).



 Yeeeaaah....That's hawt. Well, that's about it for tonight. :D Until next time, I bid you adieu with a lovely snapshot of Artemis in costume.




HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY <3


Em's updated, do her a favor and stop by:
http://animalsmakeushuman28.blogspot.com/2012/10/finished-with-finn.html

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Introducing Abnormalities

That guy there, that's Finn. To be more specific that's my dog: Finnegan Rogues (ro-gus) Russell. He's a rusty brown, crazy cocktail of a dog. With stumps for legs, he doesn't tower over many things, but his personality is never one for falling short. 

About 3 weeks ago, I adopted this permanent puppy face from a wonderful foster mom (Emily Hollida) on October, 6, 2012. The heart-warming moment was only overcome by the heart-wrenching struggle for this little guy's savior, who had been able to rescue him not only from a hoarding, suspected abusive situation, but from being euthanized in an animal control facility. Poor guy was basically feral when he fell in to Emily's lap, but she was able to come such a long way with him and get him on his feet for a better outcome in life. And after loving him and working him through so much, she was giving him to me.

This would be my first time adopting an animal, but it isn't my first time stumbling across something with a greater need for love and care than most. This oddball mix that looks oddly like a Dachshund that cross bred with a Retriever or Spaniel (or maybe he's just an alien, I hear they're tiny) would not even dare to eat around me for the first week after his initial pull from his Foster Mom. He barely ventured from the two safe-zones he scoped out during his first night. His first and most private spot: my room. Obviously, because anyone that's seen it will admit it's awesomeness. His second happened to be a secluded corner in the living room. Less awesome, but there's a computer chair blocking about a sliver of his view of people. Awesome.

Amber eyes wide, eyebrows upturned in constant worry and a mouth that opened, but never made a sound had me wondering how long it might take for him to even make a step towards gaining some semblance of dog-hood. But that thought was like wondering how long it would take me, an arguably grown-up 22 year old, to reach her maturity in adult-hood. In short: thinking about it is pointless. I hold reason to believe the aforementioned will never occur. Much to my surprise though, Finn began sticking to me like glue after the first two days. And he hasn't let go since..aside from the occasional break-apart when he forced me to watch from a distance as he retched up a smorgasbord of garishly yellow, semi-digested success. The days he performs such a task have a curious pattern of which I've yet to recognize.


Now...that girl right there, that's me: Jess. I'm about as normal as the dog I've adopted (if you couldn't already tell by the photo). I would actually consider myself to be a lot like the tiny misfit I've relegated in to my home unit. Meaning, I'm pretty quiet and reserved when I first meet people, but if you know me (and after you get to know me), I'm like a child in desperate need of Ritalin. Innocents say I've had way too much sugar. Adults say I've had far too much crack. Often the crack deductions are followed by a "where's the stash?" and "you should share", which is ridiculous because I don't share. 

You would think two abnormalities in one household is enough, but my cat, Artemis and my two goofy parents that I'm devout on 'taking care of' (teasing, pestering, whatever you want to call it) in their old age only augment the insanity involved in such a small enclosed space. I've had many reasons and opportunities to write about the given aberrations that I have been continually blessed with, but haven't decided to put thoughts in to words as I do now.

Under normal circumstances, I wouldn't fancy writing about my family (blogging, no less). Neither would I consider engrossing upon details about an animal I own. After all, I've owned many. But circumstances with me involved are rarely ever normal. And my new addition, Finn, is no exception. I expect many ups and downs with this boy that was equipped with absolutely no coping mechanisms of any kind. Some humorous, as I've already witnessed, and some...less humorous, as I have also witnessed.

To finish up what I expected to be a quick introduction that turned in to a lofty monologue, I don't regret adopting Finn for one minute. Another basket case has been branded in to the Russell family *creepy grin*.

Welcome home, Finn.  



Curious about Finn's beginning? Check out Em's story here:
http://animalsmakeushuman28.blogspot.com/2012/08/adventures-in-fostering-day-1.html